I Hate Therapy

I never want to go to therapy.  In fact, I think if I didn’t have to, I wouldn’t.  Now, it wasn’t always this way with me, but in the past couple of years it has been.  I go around every two months.  I have absolutely nothing to talk about.  TWO MONTHS and nothing to talk about.  Things happen, they get resolved, and I forget about them.  Nothing is ever pressing when I have an appointment (but wouldn’t it be nice if there was?), and I find myself rambling about random shit.

Now, like I said, it wasn’t always like this.  I used to go every week.  I used to need it to survive.  I was either depressed or manic or hearing things, or more than one (and sometimes all three… THAT was fun).  She gave me great coping techniques, etc.  Then I had to switch insurances because I made too much on disability to qualify for Medicaid anymore and also had to switch therapists.  Appointments went from being free to being $40 a pop and I stopped going as much.  My new therapist wasn’t as good and I started using the coping mechanisms that I had been taught.  Which brings us to today when I have NOTHING to talk about because I deal with everything on my own.  And I’m finally on the right meds.

Which brings me to this.  Why do I HAVE to go to therapy?  It’s mandatory that we go at least once every 2 months if we’re seeing the psychiatrist for meds.  Regardless if we need it or not.  My therapist is so available that I can make an appt and have it right away.  And I can just text her about it.  So, like, maybe make it so if we NEED to see him/her that that’s the only time we have to see them.  It’s annoying an expensive.

That said, I have an appointment next Wednesday.  Joy of joys.

About I.V.

39 year old woman with Schizoaffective, Bipolar type. I'm also intelligent, mostly positive, fandom junkie. Oh, and I have one cat left... he's 14. So... fandom junkie? Ah, yes. Supernatural, Merlin, Buffy tvs, Angel the series, LOTR, Harry Potter, old x-files. I also like anime and and Manga. farvorite anime? Vampire Knight... and it cannot be dubbed! I also like plenty of others, I think of Elfin Leid when I say that... oh, and Blood+. Favorite Manga? Junjou Romantica, Vampire Knight, Loveless, Gravitation. I like the anime for these as well if they have it. Books: Dune, Good Omens, HP, LOTR, The Hunger Games, Wicked, the Southern Vampire Series, Snow Crash, American Gods, Pride and Prejudice, comics. Movies: The Boondock Saints, LOTR, HP series, Girl Interupted, SLC Punk, Walk Hard: the Dewie Cox Story, House of 1000 Corpses, The Devil's Rejects, Foxfire, Empire Records, Star Wars (only episodes 4-6), Iron Man (both of them), Thor (1&2), The Avengers Video Games: Dragon Age 1,2 and Inquisition, Kingdoms of Amalur, Little Big Planet, Star Ocean. I also love watching other people play Mass Effect, Dead Space and all the above mentioned games Music: Billie Eilish, Halsey, Bastille, Bush, Celldweller, The Chainsmokers, The Creepshow, Ed Sheeran, Hey Violet, Pink, 5SOS, Post Malone, Rob Zombie, Shinedown, Skillet, Taylor Swift, Tori Amos, Within Temptation, ZZ Ward.
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1 Response to I Hate Therapy

  1. That’s bullshit that you have to go yet it doesn’t seem to be doing you much good. I want to go to therapy, but there are a lot of hurdles (mental and financial) that are keeping me from making that call.

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